Tuesday, February 05, 2008

He's so smart, and he cares so much

I'm a lucky man to have a husband like mine.

Tonight, I suddenly felt a deep wave of depression hit me. I didn't know why, but I was incredibly sad and didn't want to do anything. We were going to watch a movie, but then I lost interest. I reached out my hand, and Marc held it.

Then he looked at his watch.

I said, "it's almost eight o'clock."

He said, "that's not what I was looking at."

I was puzzled. "What were you looking at?"

"The date." Looking right into my eyes, he looked sad and his eyes were full of sympathy and love.

Then it clicked. Today is February 5th. We're a few hours from February 6th.

On February 6, 2004, the greatest woman I've ever known, someone I loved, and still love, beyond measure, died. Tomorrow marks four years since I lost my Mom.

It hadn't entered my conscious thoughts even once today, but I guess it has been rattling around my brain. Once Marc pointed it out, I was able to face it. Now I feel better. The pain is out in the open, right where it should be.


ATG said...

How beautiful it must be to be with someone who knows you so well that they know what's wrong before you even know yourself.

You're one lucky man.

Cincy Diva said...

You are not allowed to make me cry this early in the morning! My thoughts are with you today.


Dantallion said...

My thoughts are with you today, Jess. And while it's obvious to me that you know this already, Marc seems like an extraordinary man. You're both very, very fortunate.

Greg said...

(((Hugs))) to you, and it's good that Marc is there for you. Take care!

Cooper said...

Huge hugs to you today, Jess. I share your sorrow and am very thankful you are blessed with a husband like Marc. Funny how our hearts are so often aware of things before the full consciousness reaches the brain. Last year I felt a strong desire to bake a cake one day. Only after I had made it, did I remember that it would have been my mother's birthday.

You're in my thoughts today.

Jess said...

Thanks, everyone, and yes, I am very lucky. He's a wonderful man, that man of mine.

Lee said...


Jess said...

Thanks, Lee.

Sooo-this-is-me said...

Hugs from me too on this Jess!


dennis said...

Dennis felt the love in this post.

Jess said...

Thanks, Steven & Dennis. :)